Today is a new day
Well today is a new day.
I process things really differently.
I have an emotional break down and then the next morning I'm fine.
And boy did I have an emotional breakdown. I cried and cried and cried till my face was swollen and I had a pounding headache. I kept thinking that maybe I did the wrong thing. That we should have waited longer to do it.
But this morning I woke up feeling better. I walked into the kitchen to let Jedi out and realized he wasn't there, but I didn't feel overcome with emotions. It was just like, oh ya, he's gone.
That's just how I work. Once things have been processed over, I move on. It's like I realize life goes on and I need to keep trecking. He was a great dog that I loved unconditionally. Like Tiff said in a comment, he was just part of who I was. But now he's gone and though I feel strange in my house without hearing his nails clicking on the wood floors or him barking when I come in the house... I know that what we did was for the best. Prolonging his pain because I didn't want to part with him was very selfish. Putting him down was the loving thing to do. He knew he was loved.
Even if you look at the picture. You can tell which ones are recent because his eyes look glassy. He just was not feeling well and was in pain.
Here is one of my fave pics where Lyric looks like she is strangling him! :)
SO yes, today is a new day!
We had a really great meeting last night and I feel really encouraged.
Okay, I think that is it. I need to get back to work.
I process things really differently.
I have an emotional break down and then the next morning I'm fine.
And boy did I have an emotional breakdown. I cried and cried and cried till my face was swollen and I had a pounding headache. I kept thinking that maybe I did the wrong thing. That we should have waited longer to do it.
But this morning I woke up feeling better. I walked into the kitchen to let Jedi out and realized he wasn't there, but I didn't feel overcome with emotions. It was just like, oh ya, he's gone.
That's just how I work. Once things have been processed over, I move on. It's like I realize life goes on and I need to keep trecking. He was a great dog that I loved unconditionally. Like Tiff said in a comment, he was just part of who I was. But now he's gone and though I feel strange in my house without hearing his nails clicking on the wood floors or him barking when I come in the house... I know that what we did was for the best. Prolonging his pain because I didn't want to part with him was very selfish. Putting him down was the loving thing to do. He knew he was loved.
Even if you look at the picture. You can tell which ones are recent because his eyes look glassy. He just was not feeling well and was in pain.
Here is one of my fave pics where Lyric looks like she is strangling him! :)
SO yes, today is a new day!
We had a really great meeting last night and I feel really encouraged.
Okay, I think that is it. I need to get back to work.
Labels: Jedi
posted by Des at
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
3 Comments:
I definitely think you did the right thing and you should never doubt that. Jedi was loved while he was here and had a good life.
I think you did the right thing as well Des. You know thanks for sharing how you process grief, I feel like I do that alot, I make a choice that I am done with that emotion and boom. Until something happens that levels me. Like, I am so totally ok with Jerry being gone. I KNOW that he is in Heaven worshipping God and serving. I love that! But little things that crop up devastate me. Anyway, you did good girlfriend. Love you, Jodie
Yea! that is my favorite too! I am proud of you, that is a HARD decision. It will only help you grow and make you stronger...
- Tiffani
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