Waiting, waiting

So I've been waiting since last Wednesday to see if a request I made at work is going to be approved...
Unfortunately for me, everyone is really busy right now, and my direct supervisor went out of town, and yesterday and today have been a bevy of activity so much so that I'm not even sure if it has come up for consideration yet to the big guys...
So I just wait... and wait... and wait.
I'm not going to be crushed if they don't go for it, as I don't think they'll agree, but I am waiting nonetheless to hear... (well I will definitely be disappointed, but not crushed)
So if you people could send up a little prayer for me that would be great. I know this request would make my life a lot easier, but I'm not sure if my employer will be willing to be this flexible with me.

SO that said!

I started thinking about waiting and my inability to do so happily.

I would not be classified as a very "patient" person. I am definitely part of the NOW generation, where we want things immediately, at our fingertips and personalized to our current needs.
I don't even try to argue with the fact that I don't like waiting, as there is no point, I'm impatient. I think this has a lot to do with the fact that once I make a decision, I am ready to go through with it. It sometimes takes me a bit longer to get to a decision than other people, but once it's made, there is no going back and I will see it through come hell or high water.
So when things don't happen quickly and I am stuck in a waiting game, I tend to get, well, depressed or beaten down.
It's the control freak in me. I like to be in control of my future, and when I'm not and when I can't do anything to make something different happen or make something happen quicker, it really gets to me. Like an itch you can't scratch.
Call it my wandering spirit, but I tend to think the grass is ALWAYS greener on the other side. It's because I'm constantly searching and moving and wanting, I always think that there is just one thing that is holding me back from total contentment, and once I achieve it, I realize that there is something else that I need around the corner, just slightly out of my grasp.
Right now it's this request, after that it will be something else.
I've completely come to peace with that side of myself though. No need to try to change it. As long as I am at peace with my walk with God and with my family and close friends, there is nothing wrong with having discontentment with the mundane. It's when the discontentment bleeds over to your personal or spiritual life and you start looking elsewhere for satisfaction... that's a no-no.

Ok, so all this to say, I'm tired of waiting, but will continue to do so.

The end.