Tough Weekend

Man this was a tough weekend for me.
It's those types of weekends that moms don't like to talk about. The ones where if they were very honest, they would say, 'I don't want to be a mom anymore'. Although those moments are fleeting, it's still true on certain days when it just seems too hard and too overwhelming.

I've had one of those weekends unfortunately.

Lyric is teething hardcore. Her gums are swollen and red, but those dang suckers won't poke through.

She's run a consistent fever since Friday afternoon and if I say she's been fussy/whiney that would be the largest understatement ever given to man.

Just the slightest thing incites a meltdown. Like she can't get her little person to sit in the car right, meltdown. She trips and falls, meltdown. She wants to grab something she's not suposed to and I say no, meltdown.

Then add on the fact that she won't sleep. You would think if your mouth hurts, sleep would be a happy relief... oh no, she won't sleep more than 30 minutes during the day.

And then when she wakes up screaming, even when you pick her up, she just cries and cries.

Last night was the worst night... she even got choked up and threw up all over me, right after I had taken a shower.

Today I only went into work for a few hours, and then came home with her.

It's just been soooo hard for both of us. Me because I'm trying to be there and be a good mom and love her and comfort her, but all the while my patience is wearing thinner and thinner. Her, as she just doesn't feel good and is in pain.
It's not even like Jonathan can help. She literally won't go to anyone. She just screams and cries. I broke down on Sunday and Jon tried to take her in the other room and she just had a meltdown and wouldn't get off my lap. Jon even went and got a popsicle which she loves and tried to bribe her and she still refused. She just doesn't want anyone but me. I'm her comfort, which is nice normally... but seriously... even comforts need a break.

So, ya, it's been one of those weekends. It's not that I want to be away from her. I'm exhausted, I don't want to be anywhere but home. I just want her to not be so fussy! I want her to nap! I want a good night's sleep!

I did get out of the house once this weekend though. Jon had to go to the Apple Store so we went with him, feverish baby and all. Though she was out of it:


But I was happy to be out of the house. Plus we ate at Uncle Julio's in Grapevine and I have wanted to eat there for awhile. I really liked it. Their queso is YUMMY!


Friday night, Jonathan had gone to Danny McCoy's birthday party and they started "fighting" like Jon and Danny do best. They get twigs and start beating eachother. I don't see the interest in it, but they think it's hilarious.
Here are Jon's wounds:




Then we babysat Ash and Maddy that night when Courtney and Nathan went to a birthday party.
Here they are in my room watching a movie


Then after, Ashlyn fell asleep with Uncle Jon


Lyric did learn how to sing the B-I-B-L-E though (baby style) and I caught it on video :)



So that was my long extended weekend full of more crying and whining than I would care to think about.

Everyone pray that tonight is better... or I may go insane.