Our Love- The Unabridged Version
Three years ago today, I remember waking up so excited. Not nervous, not scared, just filled with such anticipation, this was the day that I had been waiting for.For those of you who don't know, I'll tell you Jon and I's love affair.
It started years before when Jonathan (who is from Belgium) came to Dallas to record a few songs with the worship band from Gateways Beyond. He came to Shady Grove and the Lord started doing a work in his heart. He felt connected here for some reason and vowed to come back and spend some time here. I vaguely remember the band coming, I remember my dad introducing me to everyone, but I don't remember Jonathan and he doesn't remember me.
Fast forward a few years and the picture will have changed. I had continued on my own path, not walking with the Lord at all. I was a hurting and angry young woman... when I think back on the years of 2002 and 2003 all I remember was anger. I don't know what I was so angry about, but I was really angry at anyone and everything. I did things I'm not proud of, experimented with things I should never have done, got involved with people who I shouldn't have, but in the end, nothing was different and I was still a vacant shell of the person I knew I was supposed to be.
I remember meeting him after a few days of holing myself up in my room thinking WHAT HAVE I DONE, I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE! I had decided to come out for dinner one night and Jonathan was there. At the end of the night we struck up a conversation and I found myself coming out of my self imposed depression and actually enjoying a conversation for once. He asked me where I was from and I told him Dallas/Shady Grove. He said, "Wow, that's cool. My commitment here is up in June and I have a free ticket to the states. I am planning on going to Dallas because I feel that the Lord has something for me there." I looked at him and immediately without thinking said, "I have an idea, let's get married and then you can move to Dallas and I can say I have a European husband. Everyone wins." We both laughed, but little did I know how true that statement was.
Over the course of the next 6 months, my life began to change. I dedicated my life to the Lord, I learned why I was created and I fell in love with my Savior. I let go of so many issues and was set free from addictions and pain, some of which I never even knew was there. I cried more than I ever thought possible. I learned more than I ever thought capable. I started to touch the heart of God for the first time... it was amazing.

And during that time, my silly crush that began that first night of meeting Jonathan came alive. I remember telling my sister that I had a crush on someone and her first reaction was "OH NO!" Guys have always been my biggest downfall and she was so afraid that I was going to get cheated out of a total life change... but then as the months went by and the way she heard me talking about him, she just knew. She has NEVER liked any of my boyfriends and she found herself totally on board with someone she had never met . She just knew it was right (though she didn't tell me that till later- God even gave her a dream about him). My parents felt the same way. My grandparents came and visited me in May and they fell in love with him...
Jonathan and I got really close, well as close as you can get in a place with a no dating policy :) We became best friends during that time and set the pace for an amazing relationship.
At the very end of June, the woman who came to the school in January was completely gone and in her place was someone vibrant and alive. Who loved and was loved by her God. I was completely different and Jonathan was with me during my entire transformation. Through the very low times, to the times of breakthrough, his friendship was my constant.
It was a long hard 6 months (and literally thousands of dollars worth of phone bills- long story), but we made it and came out of it closer than ever.

I flew to Belgium to meet his family in January and just like in Dallas, everything clicked. It was like the blessing of the Lord was all over this. We even took our first day trip together to Paris which was always a dream of mine to walk around Paris holding hands and be in love :)
He moved here in February 15, 2005 and we got engaged on February 21st. :)
People have asked me when I knew that I was suposed to marry Jon and although I was in love with him, I was so scared of making a mistake. I remember one night in particular I had dropped him off at my sister's house where he was staying (this was a few days after he had met my fam). I was just listening to worship music, it was late and I had just turned on NW19th from I30. I was just telling the Lord how scared I was. That it felt so right, but that I didn't think it could possibly be the right timing. I had just gotten out of a bad lifestyle, shouldn't I have to be single for awhile so God could show me things, I normally always had a boyfriend of some sort, so this must be bad timing. I said, "God why would you bring my husband to me so quickly after I left my old life." and I heard SO clearly the Lord say to me "Because you are my daughter in whom I am well pleased." I broke down immediately and just started thanking God for his love and allowing me to love and be loved. From that moment on I never questioned that the Lord brought Jonathan into my life at that time in those circumstances. He wanted us to grow together from ground zero. He wanted me to have to be so open and vulnerable to Jonathan whether I liked it or not. On that night Jonathan became my always.
Well we got engaged on February 21st and he totally surprised me. I was studying for a french test on my lunch break and he talked me into going to lunch with him and my friend Tiffani... I SO did not want to go because I needed to study. So I get to the Ballpark (where Tiff's office is) and I am waiting in my car for him to come down, studying. He calls me and is like come up, we are waiting on Tiff. I lose my temper at this point and start yelling at him telling him he is being insensitive to the fact that I have to study and blah, blah, blah, he is like come up here and I hang up on him and stomp inside. I don't even look for him, but I just sit immediately down at Tiff's desk, not even really wondering where he is (or caring because I was so mad that he wasn't letting me study). I pull my book back out and a few minutes later he calls me and I'm like "WHAT!" and he says that he left me a card. I immediately felt bad and we hung up. I found the card and he had written me this sweet card and it had a key to the other office in it. I start shaking and go open up the office and he is standing there and he proposes.
I don't really remember what he said because the entire time I am thinking, I was so mean to him just now and he was trying to propose. He asks me to marry him and the only thing that comes out of my mouth is "I'M SUCH A BITCH" :)
We laughed, I cried, and I finally said yes and then I get into instant engaged girl mode and grab my phone to call my family. But then, who walks in, but MY ENTIRE FAMILY! They were waiting down the hall :)
We all went to lunch and I was just in heaven :)
We set the date pretty quickly and it was between August 5th or August 12th... we chose August 12th because Jon said it had a better ring to it.
So that brings me back to this day 3 years ago, August 12, 2005.
At this moment, I was having breakfast with my closest friends at Mimi's cafe.
Man I wish I was blogging back then, because I would love to be able to read about everything I was feeling... but alas, my blogging days did not start till the end of 2005... anyways.
We all got together and had breakfast, then went to get our hair done, mani/pedi's, etc. Poor Abby was our work horse that day as she pulled double duty of hair stylist and bridesmaid (thanks Abby!)

I was STRANGELY, almost eerily relaxed that day. I could care less about everything because this was the day that I married my best friend and the love of my life.
It was so windy that day and they couldn't get the Chuppah to stand up... I didn't care... We had forgotten to print the programs, so I just went and did it myself. While they were printing, I went into the back room of the church and played the piano and sang... it was a really sweet time for me... I was just so happy.
We get back and everyone was panicking because they didn't know where I was and I had forgotten to bring my cell phone.
We all folded the programs and I started to get dressed and ready for pictures. I was just so excited!
After we took the pictures, the bridal party and the women in my family/extended family all gathered around and we had a time of prayer. It was so special as we prayed for this night for so long and to see it come to fruition. I started crying at that moment and didn't stop for the next hour. I was so completely overwhelmed with love. I remember watching Jonathan walk out to stand in front of the wedding canopy and I am holding on to my mom and dad crying saying, "he's so beautiful".

My heart at that moment expanded past any physical, emotional or spiritual boundaries I could have self imposed. I saw him for what he was, a man who is pledging his life to me. To protect me and love me. To always be a support to me and to care for me like no one has ever cared for me before. This was the man that I was going to grow old with, every major event in my life would be shared with him from now on... we would create children together and watch them grow. We would travel the world together. We were going be an example to everyone of how God loves them by loving eachother.
We are so alike, yet we meld together so beautifully. He is my everything and the sole person whose encouragement is like fuel to my fire.
As I walked towards him down the aisle, the song "Glance" by Misty Edwards (you can listen to the song HERE) was playing.
"I remember the first glance, I remember the first romance, I remember the first dance, when I fell in love with you... I thought that I would never know love, and maybe I would never know touch, but then you came and awakened me, and then you came, unlocking me..." it wasn't just my song to Jonathan, but my song to my Savior. On that day I officially pledged my life to both Jonathan and God...
In my vows above all I promised to love the Lord my God with all my heart and through Him I would love Jonathan. I gave the vow that Ruth gave to Naomi, "Where you go I will go, your people shall be my people and your God my God." I took on a mantle that day that I can never put down... we took the first step together towards our destiny...We couldn't stop touching and loving on eachother during the entire ceremony. We both cried the entire time. To say we were filled with love overflowing would be the most ridiculous understatement.

The rest of the night was perfect.. yes things happened or didn't happen that I would probably change if I could go back... but seriously, all that mattered was that we were joined together.
We hadn't slept together before we were married so that night was so special and nerve wracking for us both.
Our honeymoon was AMAZING. We went on a cruise and then spent a few days in Orlando going to Universal Studios... I still cherish those memories and we talk about that time to this day.
So it's been 3 years since that amazing day and 4 1/2 since we first met... since then we've done a lot. We've traveled all over, had a beautiful baby girl, bought a house, bought 2 cars, gone on vacations, weekend trips, Jonathan got his US residency and now we are going to have our 2nd child in a few months... it's been amazing and the greatest part is it's only just a fraction of our lives together.
I've never one time thought that we should have waited. I never one time have ever thought we shouldn't have gotten married. I never have one time thought that I don't want to stay in this relationship.
We just click. We are one person and where he stops I begin. I love him more than anyone on earth and I am more grateful now for him than I ever thought I could be 3 years ago.
God gave me the greatest gift of all when he gave me Jonathan.
I love you honey and happy anniversary!



































































